I have been meaning to write this blog for a very very long time but haven't had the confidence to actually sit down and compose it... till recently I have been feeling really happy and more comfortable in my own skin so here it is!
This post is going to be a little bit different to my usual blogs, but it is something I have wanted to do since I started this page.
It is a long one....
Last year I went through a really rocky period of my life... during this time I lost sight of myself and my goals. The first thing that dramatically changed for me was my skin. I had always had oily skin, which resulted in the occasional breakout; but this was soooo much worse than that. My skin was so bad I refused to go into sixth form for days and even weeks at a time.
The thought of putting makeup over it made me feel sick to my stomach and at the time, I didn't want anyone to see me like that.
(I have decided to insert some pictures of my skin to show the progress)
These were taken December 2016.
I finally decided to go to the doctor about my skin, and they prescribed me 'Isotretinoin', or commonly known as Roaccutane. This is a very strong and effective treatment for severe acne, so it obviously comes with side effects: dry skin, chapped lips and in worse cases depression and suicidal thoughts.
Fortunately I only suffered with the dry skin and chapped lips, which doesn't sound very bad, but it definitely wasn't comfortable. I didn't only rely on the medication to make me better, I changed my diet and cut out certain foods like potatoes, chocolate, sweets and spicy foods. (These are only SOME that contribute to having a bad complexion). I changed my skin care routine and avoided makeup wipes as I found that they irritated my skin more, so I now use coconut oil to remove my makeup (which is a GOD SEND if you ask me).
Today is an exciting day because after 7 months I have finally been discharged! No more medication and monthly doctors visits! yayay!!!!!
I am so happy with how my skin has improved. I am so much more confident when it comes to those no makeup days. I even went to work with no makeup on and I felt so good about myself.
During the past year, I have come a very long way and learnt a lot that I want to share with you all.
Despite all the things that you think may be terribly wrong with you... love yourself.
I can honestly think of so many reasons why you should love yourself, but here is just one: it is incredibly dull and uninspiring to be around people who do not love themselves. When my skin was at its worst, I was at my lowest and I was not fun to be around.
I would avoid certain social situations and stay at home because I felt that people were staring and judging my skin.
No one, and I mean NO ONE is perfect. Every single person has their flaws, and every person has bad days. People mess up, fail and get rejected. Everyone cries. But... your flaws do not define who you are. What matters is how you respond to them. If you can't love them, then learn to accept them.
It is ok to love yourself. No one is going to think you're arrogant; and if anyone says anything negative about you it is a reflection of their own lack of self-worth. Especially in todays society it seems to be taboo to be confident or happy. We are so quick to put each other down and be negative. Break the mould! Smile at strangers, compliment someone, make the room light up when you walk in.
I am not always happy, I am occasionally moody and a nightmare to be around if I am hungry... but I do try my hardest to be happy and thankful for everything that I have.
I am lucky to have an amazing group of friends and family who I know will always be there for me and support me. I am lucky to be going to Sheffield Hallam University next month to study a subject that I am extremely passionate about.
If someone said to me this time last year: "Isa you will figure it all out and you'll be ok" I would have laughed in their face... I am so glad I didn't lose hope because I wouldn't have come this far.
If you're still here reading this, then thank you.
I will be posting more I promise!
Thank you to all of you that read this long and lengthy blog post... It means a lot and I am very grateful to all who still show this page some love!
See you in my next post,
Love Isa xxx
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